CHECKING OUT
I turn off the Xerox machine and the fax and the other fax
and the PC tower and the fluorescents,
put the check register in the desk, lock the desk,
and take the elevator eleven floors down
to the narrow front of East 21st Street.
When I come out, the space between the buildings
is so thin it's an upside-down skyscraper of sky,
narrower at the street. There will be no sky at all
for the next two hours of trains back to Brooklyn.
Someone once told me I should come to New York, so I did.
Two trains and three stations later—and a walk
past a housing project like a cliff made of bricks—
I am back in my windowless basement room
with the tile floor, staring at the square grate
in the middle, wondering what the drain was for.
I eat the same sandwich I eat every night.
A car alarm punctuates the seconds of the dark,
as if to say how few hours of single-malt sleep
stand between me and tomorrow's trains.
Someone once told me I should come to New York,
so I did. Tomorrow I will try to buy food
for a different kind of sandwich and it will not go well—
I will see the word California on a bag of mandarin oranges
and start crying in the narrow aisles of the supermarket—
and a man with a cart full of cat food will ask me to move, please,
he is trying to get to the checkout. Where I come from,
I want to tell him, they make the grocery stores
big enough for someone to cry in the produce section
and someone else to move around them.
And when you get to the parking lot
you put your oranges in a car, not a backpack,
and you drive the car home, and you park the car
in a driveway above ground, never under,
and you eat the whole bag of mandarin oranges
at a kitchen table bigger than Brooklyn.
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Hello Friends —
Alright, it's Dara Weinberg's birthday. And she has her first poem in print in fancypants
academic literary journal thing (you can find "Checking Out" on pages
7-8 of The Hopkins Review winter 2011 issue). So
if you enjoy today's selection, hop over to www.daraweinberg.com and leave a comment on her blog.
It's National Poetry Month all month! If a poem a day just isn't enough, you can always find more at the website of the Academy of American Poets, www.poets.org.
Go Cardinal,
Ellen
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